There are two different kinds of pain. Emotional pain and physical pain. I have had no shortage of either in the last year. Recently, my physical pain has been getting a lot worse.
I have been in pain since all of this started. In fact, it all started with a headache. A headache that got more severe and more frequent, nonstop in fact, as time went on. I still have headaches. Fortunately, or unfortunately, I have gotten used to them. Even though I still have a headache almost 24/7, I have been able to keep them to a tolerable level most of the time.
Last November, I started experiencing muscle pain and tenderness. It started in my upper legs and butt (glutes). Ever since then, it has progressively gotten worse. I never thought I would be the person who had to take pain medicine daily. Well, I'm that person. The pain in my hips (I say hips because it's easier than saying upper legs, butt, and lower back), has gotten to the point where I am limping around half the day. As the day goes on, the pain gets worse. Over the last month or more I have really noticed the pain getting worse and worse. As if the fatigue, shortness of breath, and every other symptom wasn't bad enough!
In addition to the pain caused by my dysautonomia/POTS or whatever chronic illness I have, I have also had to deal with the pain of an ovarian cyst. A few months ago I was having sharp pain in my lower right abdomen. It would come and go but I also had a constant dull ache in addition to the intermittent sharp pains. I had an ultrasound and it showed that I had an ovarian cyst. I went on birth control pills to try to get rid of it and luckily it went away without surgery. Unfortunately, it was causing me a lot of discomfort while waiting for it to go away.
Well, guess what! I am almost certain I have another one. Same side. Same pain. But this time it's been worse. I have been in tears today because of the pain in my abdomen and lower back. The pain meds I've been taking for my chronic muscle pain have not been helping the pain in my abdomen. Lucky me!
As if I needed something else! I got in with my ob/gyn tomorrow and I will see what she says.
I will say that I had a few things on my mind that were getting to me today. Since my pain got so bad this evening, I haven't given one thought about any of those things.
And with that, I will leave you with a quote...
"The only antidote to mental suffering is physical pain. " - Karl Marx
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