Thursday, June 9, 2011

I think I need a break...

...from people. People have really been getting on my nerves recently. Nobody in particular. Well, I have a list of people who annoy me more than others. But that list has been longer recently.

You know... It's funny, because I just posted yesterday about priorities, how to live your life, etc. Now, today, I'm finding myself pissed off a lot. Actually, it's more like somewhere between annoyed and pissed off. That's not how I want to live my life. That's not what I would want to put in my guide. It would be something more like "don't sweat the small stuff" and other overly used cliches.

I do try my best to not get pissed off about the little, "no biggie", things. For some reason, however, I haven't had as much control over it recently.

I was in tears yesterday because of something a friend told me that I took way too personally. I was overly pissed today because someone didn't do what they said they were going to, or tell me they couldn't. It wasn't even anything important. I was terribly on edge when I was being pushed around a store in my wheelchair by daughter today. (I'm a bit of a control freak. I can't WAIT to get my electric wheelchair!)

Funny thing is, my 12 year old daughter, who talks non-stop didn't put me on edge near as much as normal. Seriously, she talks non-stop. I can just sit here, smile, and nod without responding any other way and she could carry on a 10 minute, or more, conversation with me. Of course, my 4 year old has her beat. She could probably go on for 30 minutes or more if we let her. Sometimes it's enough to drive the most patient person nuts. And that is NOT me!

Amazingly enough, they weren't bothering me near as much as the adults recently.

So, I'm thinking, I need to become a recluse for awhile. Just call me Nell.


1 comment:

Jennifer said...

I wanted to say hello and I really enjoy your blog. I have Chiari Malformation, Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome, and a few other diagnoses. I started a blog in 2008 called, 'My Life as a Wife, Mother, and Zipperhead' - it is all about my journey through life as a chronic pain/neuro/rheumo patient. I have really enjoyed reading your posts, I can empathize on many tings and its nice to know there are other people just trying to stay positive on a difficult path. Thanks:)