Wednesday, June 8, 2011
How to live your life, a guide.
I had a rough day today. I generally do the day after I over-do it. I have felt bad both physically and emotionally. Of course, I tend to get emotional when I feel physically bad. Things just upset me easier, as you can imagine.
This evening, I was laying in bed, as I have been all day, and my husband came in and laid down next to me. I thought maybe he needed to talk to me about something because he doesn't usually slow down long enough to lay with me just to chat or spend time with me. However, I learned, over the course of the next hour, that that's exactly what he was doing. We looked at videos on YouTube, talked about our day, and he listened to me vent about things that are bothering me.
When he got up, he said "There's not enough time in the day. I had so many things I wanted to get done tonight." He then proceeded to name 3 or 4 things off that he had planned on working on around the house this evening. That is when I told him that he did something WAY more important than any of those things... he spent time with his wife. He said, "I know," and gave me a big smile.
I then had an impromptu chat with him about what we will remember about our lives when we're 80. Will he think back to our 30's and think "I didn't spend enough time getting things done around the house" if he spent time with me tonight? Or will he think "I didn't spend enough time with my wife" if he spent time cleaning the garage, mowing the yard, and getting a load of laundry done tonight? I just reminded him, and myself, what is more important in life.
Now that I know what is wrong with me and I am getting a monthly disability check, two things that consumed our minds and lives for the last year and a half, we need to re-evaluate what is important in our lives.